you left, again

bitter, later
close to you on the radio
too much alcohol
ashes and sand
playing dolly parton again
making up dumb stories
on a loud edge
trying to remember how
I got here
trying to figure out
how I'm gonna get out
I know you're there somewhere
honey the way the unexplained
heat shows up
those scenes come into
the night my hands
fumble for the pills
on the nightstand
my nausea captured
by another bad dream